so i’m an internet junkie, you might say. i’ve had the internet since back in 95 or 96. i’ve made plenty of friends on the internet, mostly through gaming, but also from forums and other “community” type sites. i’ve gone to lan parties and hosted lan parties. i’m a nerd, what can i say?

anyway, it’s always interesting to meet people from the internet. that was even more the case back in the days before voice communication and the proliferation of digital cameras and/or scanners.

the first time i met people from the internet was back in 1999. my friend chris and i were playing qwtf (or quakeworld team fortress, for those of you that are lame and have no idea what i’m talking about) in a “clan” and had gotten to know a couple of the guys pretty well (well as well as you can get to know someone w/o actually speaking to them in person or seeing them face to face). one of the guys is married and lives in chicago and is having a party. a bunch of people are going to be there, including a guy from quebec who speaks broken english at best, and a guy from down south a bit (i forget where he lived then but now he lives down in TN).

i have to say that it was a very good time. we hung out our friend’s apartment, played games, went downtown to disney quest (which, btw, was the best arcade i’ve ever been to and is no longer there :( ), and even went out to a party at one of the other guy’s friend’s apartment.

since that time i’ve met other random people from the internet, either at concerts, bars, or whatever. since that first meeting, however, everyone that i’ve met has been local to CLMBS or OHIO in general. that is, up until last weekend when a bunch of our WoW buddies came to town and we went up to beautiful geneva on the lake for a meet-and-greet/get-really-fucked-up-with-a-bunch-of-people-you-hardly-know party. i should qualify and tell you that a couple of the people that i met for the first time at this party i have known through the internet for a number of years. two of them i’ve known online since back in the late 90s but never got the chance to meet before. all in all, it was probably one of the most fun times i’ve had and there were plenty of crazy/funny things going on to keep it entertaining for the entire weekend.

3 of the guys that came were from chicago and are probably some of the coolest people you could ever hope to meet. it’s unfortunate that they live so far away b/c i could see all of us spending a lot of time together and getting into a lot of trouble.

i guess the whole point to this little rant is that there is a stigma associated with the internet and meeting people who you’ve only been introduced to via the internet. i remember back in 99 when i told my parents that we were going ot chicago to meet a bunch of people from the internet, my mom freaked out and got all worried that i would be abducted or raped ,or both (or even killed). the funny things is, the guy that we stayed with is still one of my best friends in the world, and we get to hang out (in person) a couple times a year usually.

so is it dangerous to meet people from the internet? i would say yes it can be, but no more so dangerous than meeting a stranger at the bar. and in all honesty, i would say that it might be safer to meet someone from the internet, b/c i think in most situations you have already spent some time getting to know that person (unless it is a dating site, which i’m not really talking about here) gaming or posting on forums or chatting over IM or whatever. whereas, if you meet someone in a bar one night, you might go home with them after only and hour or two talking, and who knows what you get then?

ok, so in a post a few days ago i let everyone know that i work in IT. so, now that that’s out of the way, let’s get to the meat of this; WORK.

i hate work. i don’t think i’m alone in this feeling. i would hazard a guess that about 98% of all people do not like their jobs. so, when you find yourself in a situation where your job really bothers you, what do you do? that’s the question i’ve been asking myself for awhile now.

for some insight into me, i like to feel safe in general. i like to have a job so that i can have money. i like the field i’m in, just not too happy about the actual place i work. basically my workplace is a complete and utter clusterfuck. the management is shitty (what management isn’t?), the ordering process is messed up and slow (which, in my profession, you always need stuff right now and if the ordering dept takes too long, it’s my ass that gets chewed out), the hiring process is a joke (we’ve been trying to hire another person for our department for about 4 months now… the job posting is actually going up this week so they say, although i’ve heard that every week for the past 4 or 5 weeks now, so i’ll believe it when i see it), and the actual infrastructure (left to me by my previous boss) is a mess.

anyway, as i was saying, i like to feel safe; meaning i can’t (or won’t) leave one job until i have something else lined up. this causes some problems for me though…

1. i have to hide any kind of job searching from my current employer
2. i have to find a job that is similar to my current one, and my current salary (shouldn’t be too hard) before i can really take it seriously
3. i have an affinity for some of the people here, and i’d rather not leave them in a lurch. which leads to…
4. i can still learn things and grow at my current job if i can handle the freakin stress of everything here

so, where does that leave me? basically i’m stuck somewhere that has great professional growth opportunities for me. i have the ability to get my hands into anything i want here. network security? we got it. network design and maintenance? got that too. email? sure, both ms exchange AND some linux stuff. general windows networking and administration? yep, tons of that. SQL server admin? yep, can do that too. pay for training and testing/certification? they’ll do it.

BUT, there is a down side to all of this variety. if you look at any corporate model for IT, you’ll find that they tend to compartmentalize and specialize people in their IT groups. what does that mean? well, basically, they have one guy that is their email master. they have another guy who is their networking guru, and another for security. here they have…. me. i do all that and more (desktop support anyone?) the problem with this is that i cannot possibly get fluent in one thing well enough to get myself into a job somewhere else.

now i’m stuck, basically hating almost every minute i’m here, hoping and waiting for them to get another person in to our department so that i can finally get enough time (say even just one entire day without interruptions) to learn new things and try to fix the stuff that is actually in my job description.

i’ll keep looking though, just in case…